BLAST FROM THE PAST: A LITTLE PICNIC & PLANES

Summers in Chicago are the days that I long for. Hot sun on my skin. The sun and I have a very special relationship. I swear every time that I am out with the sun beaming down on me, I can feel myself getting full of energy and life. I know, that sounds a bit dramatic, but I swear it’s true. LOL

Lately in Chicago, our hot days are taking longer to get here. We are currently in the middle of April and still SNOWING! Needless to say, I am really missing summer days right now. Hopefully, soon, we will see them again. Until then, here is a blast from the past post:


This summer in Chicago has not been the hottest. I don’t know what is happening with the weather lately, but it has been all over the place. Chicago has days where it begins cloudy, starts storming in the afternoon and by evening its nice and sunny and hot. So, having a whole day of heat and sun is really a luxury now. Luckily, the other day we had one of these days so Kat & I decided to have a picnic out by our neighborhood park. It was such a relaxing way to have lunch together. I wish we would have done more of it during the summer, but seeing as we have very little summer left we might not get another chance at a picnic this year. At least we have something to look forward to next summer. We ended up having some Banh Mi, mine was from a store and Kat decided to make her own. We also got a mango smoothie and some salad. It all turned out to be extremely good! The Air & Water show was on this day also and living so close to the lake, we got to see and hear the planes.

Messages from Within

Life is such a crazy and exciting thing. You really don’t ever know what it is that you are going to get from it. And Time! Man, is time a funny thing as well, and then when you put both together… whoosh…. so many possibilities.

I’m not sure how many people in my life know about my connection to spirits. When I was younger- I’d say maybe 3-5, I was able (and still am, although I have no control over it) to see spirits and also talk to them. My family loves to tell the story of how when I was younger, I would talk to the Old Man who lived in my grandparents house. I’d be playing alone upstairs in the attic, a finished attic with bedrooms, not the scary movie ones with cobwebs and squeaky floor boards. Throughout my life, I have seen spirits, both physically, and through my third eye as well. At times, they send me messages through songs.

This blog has seen many different views of life, it’s changed in context and I’m sure it will keep on changing as I change. And I have changed. I’ve changed how I think, how I react, and how I view the world. It’s weird to think that a person can completely “change” who they are. But, what I have come to realize, doing inner work and working on my negative patterns in my life, is that maybe we aren’t changing who we are, but maybe we are just becoming who we truly are. As genuine loving people who make choices from a open hearted & grounded point of view. Now, don’t get me wrong, it’s not always easy, and there are some people that trigger those not so nice reactions from us. It happens. That’s part of being human. I’m not sure how this blog is going to look, and I’m done trying to mold it into other blogs I see. I’m going to use this as a platform to share the wisdom and knowledge and messages I get while walking down the path of a healer.

So Many Changes

There have been so many changes that have happened since I’ve last been on here. Some good, some bad, some ugly, some healing, but ALL with lessons.

I’m not sure how this blog is going to be looking going forward- all I know is that I need to get back to writing. It’s been a form of meditation, although I didn’t see it like that before. Now, I realize that many times when I write, I am able to clear my mind and allow for wisdom to flow through. I know this because many times I question if those are my actual thoughts LOL.

I’ve recently actually started meditating, and I’ve gotten messages that I need to start writing again. Even if i have to start small- just writing down thoughts, slivers of wisdom, or just to get rid of the junk. Ha! Peaceful Warrior joke right there!

So, with that being said – my blog will probably change format within these next… whatever measure of time… because what is time really? Lol

So, until the next time I have thoughts floating around- make sure to always find the light in the world.

BLAST FROM THE PAST: A DETOXIFICATION FROM UNWANTED LIFE DISTRACTIONS

As this year (2018) began I was ready to jump into living the best life as of yet. Now, that a month and a half has passed all I want is for this year to be over LOL. I feel like I have lived 3 different lives in 1.5 months. How is that even possible?! So, as I logged back in to this little online journal of mine, I saw this blast from the past and thought it was perfect timing, seeing as I have gotten rid of my Facebook, I have started meditating daily, and I joined a boot camp gym to help with the exercising.


I’ve come to realize that I spend way too much time on distractions, i.e social media or gossip sites (darn my weakness for celebrity gossip!)Many times I don’t even realize that I am doing it, which is not a good thing. I don’t like feeling controlled by social media, getting sucked into, at times very dramatic, lives of other people when I can be living my own. So with that said, I have decided to ease off of these things and use my time on things that will challenge me, mentally, spiritually and physically.

For a mental challenge, I’m going to do a book challenge. I going to read 25 books in a year. Yes I know that it might seem like a small number, but my schedule will not allow for more. I want to set a goal that I can complete, and if I bite off more than I can chew on this, I will get discouraged and quit. I love reading books, and I used to read them a lot more but then life happened and I got lazy. If you know of any good books, let me know!

For a spiritual challenge, I’m going to meditate. I’ve meditated every few weeks throughout this past year, but I want to make it more of a routine. It becomes really hard for me to meditate because one of two things happen. I either start thinking about so many things, while also telling myself that keeping a clear mind is what I’m supposed to be doing, therefore I then start to argue with myself making the meditation hard. Or, I relax too much and fall asleep. If you know of any good meditation recordings or strategies, let me know!

For a physical challenge, I’m going to increase the times I work out.The last few weeks I’ve worked out maybe two days a week. Kat & I were driving down Lake Shore Drive and I noticed how beautiful the the Lake Shore Path by our apartment was. So we decided to take bike rides down to the beach and ride down along the path. If you know of any other great physical activities, let me know!

Learning the Language of Emotion

Learning about emotions usually happens when you are a kid. You’re sad, you cry. You’re happy, you smile. Then, as you get older you learn about excitement, anger, confusion, jealousy etc., but is learning the language of emotion just as easy and similar for all? Or, does how we are raised have everything to do with how we handle our emotions and how we communicate them? I’ve always been the person that has trouble communicating my feelings and emotions. Maybe it was because emotions and talks about emotions didn’t really happen growing up. Did I know this? Not until recently. I mean, I knew I understood emotions, and I could recognize them when I saw them expressed by people, but I never really knew my own emotions when they came up. I was never talked to in the language of emotion, at least not in a “well rounded” sense. Anger and hurt were the emotions that ran my house. A lack of comfort. Not that it was done purposefully, I just don’t think my parents were taught how to properly express their own feelings either, as the same with their parents and so on and so forth. It’s crazy how much is passed down from generation to generation, the good the bad and the ugly.

In this past year, I have been doing a lot of self-healing. A lot of internal processing, and a lot of reflecting on my life and how I live it. I’ve made many realizations, some small and some really big. One thing I’ve recently realized is that I’ve never really liked being asked my feelings about a situation. It would bother me so much, and I realize now that it was because I never actually knew how I was feeling. And of course, not knowing something for me was me being a failure. You see, being smart and educated was a really important thing in my house. Having good grades, being a good student, having a stable secure job with benefits. So the fact that I may not know my own emotions when asked seemed, to me, that I would be seen as a dumb person; and of course I couldn’t take that- not with my birth chart (but thats a whole other post).

So now I find myself, 28 years old and barely learning the language of emotions. Learning how to feel and know what I am feeling and then communicating it in a loving and compassionate way. A way like “It makes me sad that you are going through this because it doesn’t always have to be that way, but I am here for you if you need anything.”, when a loved one tells you that they are struggling with a situation. Instead of just saying, “that’s sucks”. Or actually expressing your feelings instead of just shutting down and checking out of a situation/conversation because your feelings got hurt. Such as, “It hurts me when you ask me to repeat myself over three times because it makes me feel like you aren’t listening to me.” These two simple phrases have taken me 28 years to be comfortable saying. Now, I’m not saying that I am the expert on the language of emotions, because I’m not. I am still in the learning phase, and chances are that I may still revert to my old comfortable way of dealing with emotions. It’s a daily thing I work on, but hopefully with each day that goes by those moments happen less.