The song that’s been playing in my head

Two AM and she calls me ’cause I’m still awake,
Can you help me unravel my latest mistake,
I don’t love him, winter just wasn’t my season
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize, hypocrites,
You’re all here for the very same reason
‘Cause you can’t jump the track, we’re like cars on a cable
And life’s like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button girl,
So cradle your head in you hands
And breathe, just breathe,
Whoa breathe, just breath May he turn twenty one on the base at Fort Bliss
Just today he sat down to the flask in his fist,
Ain’t been sober, since maybe October of last year.
Here in town you can tell he’s been down for a while,
But my God it’s so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him, maybe I’ll just sing about it.
‘Cause you can’t jump the track, we’re like cars on a cable,
And life’s like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe, just breathe,
Whoa breathe, just breathe
There’s a light at each end of this tunnel, you shout
But you’re just as far in as you’ll ever be out
These mistakes you’ve made, you’ll just make them again
If you only try turning around.
Two AM and I’m still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, its no longer
Inside of me, threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I’m naked in front of the crowd
‘Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you’ll use them, however you want to
‘Cause you can’t jump the track, we’re like cars on a cable,
And life’s like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now
Sing it if you understand.
And breathe, just breathe
Whoa breathe, just breathe.

One of the first times I remember hearing this song (Breath by Anna Nalick) is during an episode of Grey’s Anatomy, season 2, where there is a bomb inside of a patient. I do not know why, but that episode because one of my favorite episodes in the series. Since then, this song has been a favorite of mine. Today, this song has been playing in my head over and over. It’s weird.. throughout the day I’ve stopped to tell myself to just breath. It’s been a crazy hectic day at work, not in a bad way, just busy. And when I get into that work fast mode I forget to sometimes breath and get super anxious. I’ve learned that taking deep breaths in and out help me to relax and stay in the present moment.

A Small Look Into My Inner World

I’ve not one to lucid dream and remember. I’ve always been what some would call aware. And ever since I can remember, I’ve been able to see spirits. Of course, like any other child, growing up in a family that didn’t understand how much of a gift that could be, I was shielded and taught to block it. Whether this was because of fear or ignorance, take your pick. Point is that I never really shut it off. How it’s been explained to me by other intuitive people is that basically I have a light, say a porch light if it helps, and that light is always on because I have a gift, and since this porch light is always on, spirits follow that light. So they basically show up unannounced lol

Well because of this special little light that I have, I feel more intuned, and because of this, I sometimes feel weird energies around me…. which brings me to the point of this rant lol

This past week I experience a really unsettling dream I had. It felt like a lucid dream, but since I do not lucid dream often I am not too sure. All I know is that when I finally was able to wake up out of what felt like a trance, I was left with the most unnerving feeling. I did not feel safe, and I felt like I had just had an emotional trauma to the point where I needed to cry in order to relase some of those emotions.

My question, or point, is who’s ever experienced feelings like this after a traumatic lucid like dream? I smudged my whole apartment, which helped. But now I have this feeling of not being able to sleep alone at night. Am I a baby for this? Who knows. But if anyone knows of any good guided meditations- please share.

Say Hello to Lil’ Scoby

Lil’ Scoby is my new amazing friend! 

For those who don’t know, this Lil fella is my number one helper to making kombucha! Little secret that is not so secret, I love kombucha! I think it has to do with the carbonation of the drink. 

I’ve recently decided that I am going to start brewing my own kombucha because 1) I really like it & 2) I’ve recently started to drink more pop which isn’t good for me, and I think that kombucha will help me kick that habit! Let’s hope! 

Now the only thing I need to do is figure out different combinations of flavors to make for my kombucha! Maybe watermelon and basil will be next! I know I want to try some pomegranate flavor too…. but I still need to experiment. 

My goal is to be known as the kombucha house lol

Animal Messenger Of The Day: Bear

“Nurture creativity & return to the sweetness of life”

It’s funny that this is my message for today because lately I’ve been feeling like I should be meditating more because it’s going to open me up to my power and gift that I have to offer the world. I feel like the next few months for me is going to be a whole bunch of manifestation and creation. I’ve never felt like much of a creative person, but lately I feel that the answer to that is meditating because that’s when my intuition will come back to me….. or will be easier to listen to what it’s saying. This card just reaffirms everything that I’ve been feeling. Makes me think that I am an intuitive person and my guides are talking to me! 


Animal Messenger Of The Day: Red Squirrel

“Gather your resources now, for they will sustain you through coming change”

My life in the last couple of years has truly been a journey! I have learned and grown and have become more aware of what my path in life is. With that said, these past two weeks have brought about a major shift that has been felt with not only Kat, my wife, but also our friends who also walk along the same path as us. The message that I received from this card is that now is the time to learn as much information about my interest and goals for my life’s work. Use any and all of the resources available to me, that will help me in my future work. Just like the Red Squirrel gathers its resources for the coming winter, I must go out and take advantage of all the opportunities for growth, because that will be what helps me get through the cosmic shift that is happening.

What does this animal messenger say to you? Are you ready and preparing for the amazing changes coming your way? If not, this card is definitely telling us to prepare!